Sleepless nights

The second last paper tomorrow~~

The sleepless nights are driving me crazy!!!!

Though i felt extreamly tired, kept on yawning n yawning, but once i close my eyes, my mind will keep on wandering here and there...

Formulas, equations...tutorial questions.....

Argh...i din sleep more than 4 hours every night!!

Help!!! Insomnia is killing ~~

Words of happiness~

I am back!!!

SO exhausted man!

Auto Show 2009 was finally come to an end...

The whole process was quite fun, though there are times where i have my tears dropping down...

Seriously, everything worth it ! The effort i put in, the commitment i had, and it is worth it!

First, meeting with the representative from Drift.com, Mr. Zee King...

Haha, he is sometimes very funny...although there were some technical problems, no walkie, no hailer, no this no that, marshal not prepared, but still he is willing to teach...

Secondly, a drifter that offers to gimme a ride in his Hiper DCM Silvia...

Let's welcome -------> Yoong! The king of rodeo~

Haha...the first impression i had about him is...."Eh, why this guy looks alike Hsia Tiong ar? "

I saw him doing the Rodio stunt during last year's Auto Show; and i really admire his drifting skill, the aggresiveness he have, it blows me up!

It is udeniable that he is also a nice guy to chat with, to crap with..haha!

And it is even best when he drives me in his babe~ Unbelievable that my dream will come true, in a year's time !

Now, let's welcome -------> Sean ! The one who tought me how to drift~

The one who said that i am coward! Hahah...he promised to me that he will do the donut....

When everything finished, he asked me to stand in the middle and he will do the donut stunt...

But, the coward me, ask some to join me....hehe~ (* He said that the donut is only for me! )

Funny ~ But nevermine, its fun too~ To have so many people screaming together with you~

Besides, he recommended me a sun block, which he personally thinks that it works well under the hot sun !

So, i tried it on, and it prooves that Sean is correct !!!!!!!

Its fun to work with so many people, i have gain some wonderful experience that no one can probably get...Guys, thanks o much !

Auto Show 2009 won't be a success event without you guys!

THe BOMBASTIC Auto SHow 2009

Wala~ AUTO SHOW 2009 is COMING!!!!!!

Date : 11-12 of APRIL

Time : 9 am to 12 am

There are lots of super cool activities...

Car drifting, modified cars, air brush demonstration, audio blasting, cyphering,

and lotsa events...

Do SPREAD the news around...

Do come to our event!!!

Lotsa cool stuff waiting ahead~

Why still waiting?

Maybe you are the lucky one who get to ride in the drifting car?

Who knows....

Jeng * Jeng * Jeng *

Vote for the Earth ^.^

Finally ^^


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Its the time...

Dear diary,

Hell a lot of things happened in my life
lately.

I suddenly found "me".

I'm not there yet but I'm getting a hint of how it
should
be.

Something happened and it makes me feel that what's
happening to me now, it's just a minor thing in life. I knew it earlier but
I
didn't want to accept it.

The truth is, I love myself the most when I was in
college.
I'm impressed by myself because I'm always motivated, I've my dreams
and I
knew I was going to make it come through. However, all of those have lost
when I put my feet into love. The sweetness and the dependence of love has
over-shine those values and I lost myself gradually. Anyway, that's what
love
does isn't it? It gives you a relieve from the hazardous life, a time
out from
the ups and downs. It makes problems no longer
problems.

You made me believe in love and now you're ruining
it.

Now that I've lost love, now that I knew that you
doubted your love on me. You don't love me strong enough that's why you've
doubts. I won't even think of letting go if I truly love, I wont allow, not
even
a second for that thought to come into my mind. But you're saying it
over and
over again, you're taking my tears for granted. It is a cruel fact
for me to
accept it. It's devastating, it's disappointing. You've broken my
heart and the
trust I built on you all this while. It is saddening,
extremely. But, I've done
what I can to save it. It didn't work simply
because you don't want it to
work.

Any reason that you gave, it's just an excuse.
Because there
is nothing love can't overcome. Unless love no longer
exists.

I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of tears falling
everyday. I'm tired of having my friends worrying about me constantly. I
don't
want to be that person anymore.

You made me waited every time, did I ever make you
wait?

Yes you did a lot of stuff that make you sounds
like a great bf, but why are you doing all those? Do you even know why? Or
you're just doing it because you thought that's what a great bf should
do?

I'm giving this a secret period of time for myself
to recover. By any chance if you gonna come back to me and coincidentally I'm not
yet recovered, then I'll probably give it another try. But, once I'm recovered,
then
that's it. The end of it.

You're selfish in love. And in love, no one should
be selfish.
You chose this. You hurt me with your words one time after another.
and you
know what hurt me the most? It is the part where you decided to dump me
just
because you think that you will hurt me again in the future. You don't even
think of stop hurting me, you don't even wanna try to give me happiness.
Instead, you think of giving me to another person. Am I your pet? What I am
to
you? You thought this is gonna heal me? No way, it will hurt me once and
for
all. It will make an impact to my life forever.

Problems will still occurred in any other love that
I would
have. The difference is whether I'm putting an effort to make this work.
There is no such thing as :can't be solved. That's what I believe. You're
trying
to impress me with how well you're brought-up by your religion. But
what I see
now is, you don't want to solve problems, you're avoiding the
problems and
finally you give up. Should I consent to any religion like
that? It's negative
and not worth it. I'm observing every
minute.

Maybe no one ever told you this, but I just wanna
tell
you, you're not mighty grand for being that "thoughtful", concerning about
my happiness. You knew you can give those to me but you refuse to. You're
just
foolish.

Adapted from april22childreborn...

She went through it...and she knows well
how it feels when someone that you love the most leave
you...

Took this blog entry...is not because i
am still in the dilemma, jz that it reflects what i had thought of all this
while...

Keep moving on~ He deserve nothing from
me anymore...

Heart beat...of mine

Found a song that means alot to me..

想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊

不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明

好想要回到我们的原点

你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰

我又在摇头 有那么点后悔

爱情的发展已难以回头 却无法往前走

但身不由己出现在胸口

两颗心能塞几个问号

爱让我们流多少眼泪

你的眼神充满美丽 带走我的心跳

你的温柔如此靠近 带走我的心跳

逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒

等着哪一天你也想起

那悬在记忆中的美好

This song sounds emo...suites the emoness i have now...

I am speechless...the only thing to express myself...is through music...

Again...i have to admit that i am not good at express myself...

People tend to get the wrong message from me...

Including you...You always can't get what i mean...

Am i so...

=.=

Promises are meant to be broken...

And you...are the only person that i am still able to bear with...till today...

Though everything are so fake, bt you still make it sounds so real, and i still...yea, i still believe in it...

Dearest dad...

Papa reached Malacca- Ixora Apartment at 6 something in the morning...

But he wake me up at 7....and he actually waited for me jz to let me sleep more...

I cried and cried last night...its my fault to cause him travel so far from Kedah to Malacca just to have a look at me...jz to see am i in a good condition....papa...i sayang you...~

Went to have Dimsum, we chatted all the way to dimsum...and i can feel that he is worried about me...a girl that never complain anything about studies to him will suddenly called him and cried to him, telling him that she is facing problem in studies...

To him, i am always a tough girl, i never complain about anything, just sometimes about some silly things...bt not in studies...

Okay, back to the story...

After dimsum, he went to Sukimasese's room to take bath...sigh...

Silly Ixora...sigh....

Later, we went to Dataran Pahlawan...and he bought me 1 long pants, 1 cuttie shirt, and 1 checked shorts...and 1 jeans and T-shirt for himself~

We walked and walked and walked.....i am tired, and so do him...

We even walked to Jonker Street for a bowl of cendul and ais kacang...haha!

The taste of gula malacca is superb..and papa like it so much~ Muahahahaaha^^

Went back at 4 something...and off we go for dinner at 6 in the evening..

We talked and talked and talked...

Papa talked about how he managed to graduate...and how tough of the life he had been through last time...He even talked about how he feels when he first sent me here...

I realise that he sometimes blamed himself for sending me here, without considering about my interest and if i am willing to come here...

But i told him that...he did a correct choice...i never blame him for sending me here, and i din feel regret of choosing this subject...really..

I will love him because he loves me so much....hehe^^

He did everything for me...choosing the best for me...and care so much for me...and even help to solve the troubles i caused everytime...

Thanks papa...for everything~ Miss you and love you forever~

The someone..

Someone is very proud of you..

Someone is thinking about you..

Someone cares about you...

Someone misses you...

Someone wants to talk to you...

Someone wants to be with you...

Someone hopes you aren't in trouble...

Someone is thankful for the support you have provided...

Someone wants to hold your hand...

Someone wants you to be happy...

Someone is celebrating your successes..

Someone think you are a Gift...

Someone wants to hug you...

Someone admires your strength....

Someone is thinking of you and crying...

Someone wants to be your shoulder to cry on...

Someone wants to go out with you and have lots of fun...

Someone wants to protect you...

Someone would do anything for you...

Someone is grateful for your forgiveness...

Someone wants to be forgiven..

Someone wants to laugh with you about the old times...

Someone remember you and wishes that you were there...

Someone values your advice...

Someone wants to tell you how much she cares...

Someone wants to share her dreams with you...

Someone wants to hold you in your arms...

Someone wants you to hold her in your arms..

Someone treasures your spirit...

Someone believe she could stop time because of you...

Someone can't wait to see you...

Someone wishes that things doesn't have to change...

Someone loves you for who you are...

Someone wants to be with you...

Someone loves the way you make her feel...

Someone wants you to know that she is there for you..

Someone stayed up night thinking about you...

Someone is wishing that you will notice about her...

Someone wants to be near you...

Someone misses your guidance and advice...

Someone has faith in you...

Someone trust you...

Someone needs your support...

Someone needs you to have faith in them...

Someone loves you...

Sukimasese....someone needs you....

Twilight

the official summary from Summit Entertainment

Bella Swan has always been a little bit different
Never one to run with the crowd, Bella never cared about fitting in with the trendy, plastic girls at her Phoenix, Arizona high school.
When her mother remarried and sent Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she didn't expect much of anything to change.
But things do change when she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen. For Edward is nothing like any boy she's ever met.
He's nothing like anyone she's ever met, period.
He's intelligent and witty, and he seems to see straight into her soul.

In no time at all, they are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance - unorthodox because Edward really isn't like the other boys.

He can run faster than a mountain lion.

He can stop a moving car with his bare hands.

Oh, and he hasn't aged since 1918.

Like all vampires, he's immortal.

That's right - vampire.

But he doesn't have fangs - that's just in the movies.

And he doesn't drink human blood, though Edward and his family are unique among vampires in that lifestyle choice.

To Edward, Bella is that thing he has waited 90 years for - a soul mate.

But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy.

Somehow or other, they will have to manage their unmanageable love.

But what will they do when Laurent and James, the Cullens' mortal vampire enemies, come to town, looking for Bella?

A modern, visual, and visceral Romeo and Juliet story of the ultimate forbidden love affair - between vampire and mortal.

I am craving for it....

Went to watch Twilight just now...

And guess what, the movie was just too nice that it catches my heart...

This was the first movie to make me think twice about what had just happened in my life...

The story might be a little unrealistic....

For me, the love between Bella and Edward is always the love that i craving for...

The protection that Edward is giving to Bella...

How i wish that someone do protect me in such that way...

I won't care so much, even he is a vampire...

Love includes trust between two people....

You won't hurt or you won't let the person you love in danger...or harm by anyone...

I once fall in love with a person....

and he make me feel secure whenever i am with him...

the feeling of being safe surrounded me whenever i was with him...

I have faith in him...i do trust him with the full of my heart...like how Bella trusted Edward, even he is a vampire...

Faith is one of the reason that make me still so in love with him till now...

How i wish there will be a person that will protect me, love me, care about me, cherish me, like how Edward and Bella do...

Cherish the person who loves you....

What tittle should i put...

I am tired...of everything...

I am really tired...

You have changed me....a lot...

I am not the one before...

You have changed me, into the person that can't go back to the old self anymore...

You have changed me into be a materialistic person...

You are selfish...

You always wanted me to be the person with the characteristic that you like...

You force me to change to a different person...

You are so selfish...

I tend to keep my things, my feelings to myself...since you are not there anymore to listen to me..

I choose to keep it to myself...

But you always force me to tell you!

And everytime your reaction will be the same everytime you listen to what i told you...

You tend to find my fault...according to you, everything happened because of my fault..

Everything is not reasons...they are facts...and it is undeniable..

To you, am i always the person who will always argue with you?

To you, am i the person who will always make you feel angry...

To you, be together with me will only bring sadness, angryness to you...

To you, i am always the one who spoil your mood, make you feel headache bout...

I am always a spoiler to you...cause i tend to spoil your everything...

And you must be thinking that meeting with me this type of person, is the worst thing that happens in your life, isn't it..

I am tired....

Soup of the Day

换季

爱情还在小睡....爱情起床咯！

花儿一朵朵的开放，就像在庆祝爱情的到来...

树叶掉落，花儿枯了，像在代表着爱情的结束....

是泪滴 结束每段感情

要时间忘记 想忘记

其实埋藏在心里

雨滴 结束每个冬季

晒不干过去 就面对你

喜怒哀乐的回忆

听 天空晴朗开始好天气

别在忧郁 宛如心情也天晴

失恋的人就换季 脱下过期爱情

突醒的眼里 看见发亮的自己 哦~多美丽

受伤的人就换季 春夏秋冬轮替

总有你的美景 等待下一期 下一次天晴

雨滴 结束每个冬季

晒不干过去 就面对你

喜怒哀乐的回忆

听 天空晴朗开始好天气

别在忧郁 宛如心情也天晴

失恋的人就换季 脱下过期爱情

突醒的眼里 看见发亮的自己 哦~多美丽

受伤的人就换季 春夏秋冬轮替

总有你的美景 等待下一期 下一次天晴

失恋的人就换季 脱下过期爱情

突醒的眼里 看见发亮的自己 哦~多美丽

受伤的人就换季 春夏秋冬轮替

总有你的美景 等待下一期 下一次天晴

秋天过去了，并不代表冬天的不来临。

你的出现，并不代表不会有他人的不出现。

有你的季节，显得特别的美丽；但没有你的季节，依然也显得很美丽。

但，春夏秋冬的改变，并不能改变我对你的思念。

我，依然显出了自己的矛盾.........